Happy Pills

April 14th, 2010


Happy pills (or selective seratonin re-uptake inhibitors) and my mom’s orange polyester evening gown with fabulous contrasting belt and jacket is how I am getting along these days.

So tell me internet.

What gets you through?

And if you say Jesus…

I will slap you.



  • Patricia:

    Reading you and other interesting, though provoking blogs, gets me through. Think I might try me some of those happy pills though……

  • Patricia:

    That should say ‘THOUGHT’ provoking blogs…..sorry – the one time I didn’t spell check myself……

  • Hate to sound Pollyanna-ish but having a supportive husband and two sisters to piss and moan to who listen and commiserate helps me get through it. Also putting things in perspective, realizing not to freak about things I can’t change.

    • Susie – it doesn’t sound pollyanna-ish to me. Sounds great.

  • That gown is the best. thing. ever. If I had one, and orange didn’t make my skin turn a sickly chartreuse color, I would wear it all the time, around the house, and to answer the door when the Baptists came knocking.

    To get through: lots of breathing which I had to learn because I forget to do it, my husband, my dog and honestly – nature. That puts things in perspective for me when nothing else can.

  • Blogging and Harry Potter. And the occasional glass of wine.

  • Awesome gown, by the way! My mother had blue velvet gown with a coordinating red velvet coat circa 1969. I’d give away my brother’s youngest child to have it in my possession today!

  • jalf:

    It’s spring, the sun is shining, I graduated 2 days ago. I couldn’t ask for much more.

    Then again, I’m not the one who just went through a pretty radical “de-conversion”. I probably have it easy.

    Anyway, the world is a nice place, even if an awful lot of people believe some awfully silly things. That’s always kept me afloat.


  • Glad you found what works. Love the gown, though I look sick in orange.

    What gets me through is meditation (not spiritual, just de-stress breathing and relaxation) and being in nature. Plus I’ve always been the que sera sera type. That isn’t always a good thing, but it does have its advantages.

  • Celie:

    Myself, I could use some pep pills instead of happy pills. I have a great, supportive husband who doesn’t say a word about the messy house. Pep pills. I need them NOW! But glad you found your happy pills. (which is what we used to call mom’s hormone pills.) Glad you are back!

  • DirtyKSmama - Nikki:

    Winter is the roughest time for me, so I read and read.

    Then the sun comes out, things start turning green, and nothing gets me happier than seeing my hubby come home from work in the morning with a load of free, composted, cow manure from K-State in the back of his truck for my gardening. Then I spend the morning slining shit all over the place. SOOOO happy! My 7th daily load of crap is on it’s way now.

    The rest of the time, being silly with my kids, especially booty-shaking dancing in the kitchen to 70s and 80s songs.

  • DirtyKSmama - Nikki:

    “slinging” – shit!

  • That is truly the best dress ever! Please tell me you wear it all the time!

    What gets me through…blogging, both reading and writing my own, good friends, a supportive husband and my son, and the occasional dose of tequila. I’ve thought about happy pills. Maybe someday.

  • Vickie:

    I have several things that get me through- including my family and yes, my religion. I have to say that seeing that picture of you this morning made me smile. It reminded me of some of your posts from ‘before’ that I enjoyed so much. I also really enjoyed the posts about your house. Would love to see some more if you’re so inclined.

  • Martha Jean C.:

    So, so SO glad you’re back. The dress is perfection.

    My favorite blogs get me through, and yours is at the top of the list.

  • tessa:

    OMG! Im so glad to see you are back!! Glad I checked again!!!

    lol – now I have to go read.


  • LucyGolden:

    I, too, take happy pills for anxiety disorder. Reading your blog helps get me through – it’s wonderful to know there’s someone else out there who “gets it.” Having a wonderful, goofy & understanding husband is the ultimate elixir!

    Love the dress; you look mah-velous!

  • Katie (from the song):

    Gotta love better life through pharmacology. Studies show that more highly intelligent people suffer for whatever requires those SSRs or at least that is what I have convinced myself. As you may have guessed, I have prayed for you (sorry but that’s just what I do). Not necessary for your soul (b/c I truly believe it is in tact) but for your happiness. May it be yours in complete fullness!!! Miss you. (Funny how the last four year have been full of many ups and downs for us both. Perhaps we need to find more time to talk with and/or see each other! I can help you find your way around town again and you can suggest how I can find my way around this town. HA!)

  • Roman:

    I’m loving the dress…loving it! I’m glad you’re back on. I don’t comment much, but I faithfully follow your blog. By the way, I also have to take some happy pills for bipolar disorder. Once I got past the initial yuckiness (it’s a medical term) I felt like my old self again. That and some good ‘ol therapy have made a huge difference…

    When all else fails, I dance in my living room by myself with the music turned up loud, I have dinner and wine with good friends, I read a good book, or I go running…and curling up with my two kitties is a sure fire way to get through some rough patches. Hope this helps, and hang in there :)

  • km:

    Springtime tulips and a glass of merlot !
    Also my youngest starting sports. There’s nothing like 5 yr olds “playing” tball or soccer to keep a smile on your face.
    Helmets falling into their eyes, soccer togs down to their ankles, all of them bouncing as they listen/ignore instructions, emergency bathroom breaks in the middle of play, dandelion clock blowing, scoring in the wrong goal. Love it !!

  • Mindy:

    Comedy. Since I can’t drink, smoke, ride rollercoasters or take hot baths, that’s about the only thing that’s left right now. Just getting a good laugh takes away so much of the tension. Which is one of the reasons why I read your blog!

  • tessa:

    I LOVE the orange dress! Orange makes me happy lol. Seriously, I even drive an Orange Jeep!

    What gets me through?

    ~like-minded folks to talk to – even if only on the net (Im SO glad you’re back!)


    ~the love I feel for my daughter

    ~daily dose of Ellen on tv

    ~loom-knitting (soooooooo relaxing!)

    ~generic zoloft

    ~being outside w/my 3 dogs and 3 cats


    ~detailing my Jeep (its way more fun than housework!!)


    Just to name a few…lol

  • Action Squirrel:

    Meditation, enough sleep, a balanced diet of whole foods, exercising daily gratitude (I write it down. Sounds insipid and easy, but oh no grasshopper.), actual exercise at the gym, and, when all else fails, dancing like an absolute crazy person to Bollywood dance music.

    Everyone has their vitamins, those are mine.

  • Action Squirrel:

    Also really long walks. There’s something about just getting outside alone with my iPod and walking aimlessly for 30 to 40 minutes that really untangles things, calms me down, re-balances me.

  • Melissa:

    After having been on happy pills for many years, I started to research the root cause of my depression. I read “The Mood Cure” and have taken it to heart. The tenets of proper diet and getting enough of certain amino acids have help me and my teenage daughter who was also on happy pills. She and I are much happier and more stable now due to the Mood Cure recommendations. Read it and feel better without prescriptions.

  • CeeBee:

    The voices in my head talk myself back off the ledge almost daily. Love the shoes!

  • What gets me through is knowing I’m not alone in not loving jesus. I’m glad you started writing again. I once took happy pills for several months after my children were born 10 weeks early. They helped immensely and I went off them after 4 or 5 months with no issues.

    I also love laying in my hammock even if my kids crawl all over me and threaten to throw us all to the ground. I enjoy life so much more now it’s ridiculous.

  • pam:

    I wish the happy pills worked for me. But they don’t. So I try to get out and walk the dogs everyday. Sometimes it’s so dang hard to even get out of the house.

  • Priss:

    The last several months (maybe longer…it almost seems like it’s always been this way) have been blue ones for me. I tend to be a pragmatic, even keeled person, especially compared to some of my volatile family members, but recently I’ve been pretty low. I haven’t started on anti-depressants, though I’m a firm believer in them. My husband and both my daughters need them and I see that they’ve benefited from them. But I wasn’t quite ready to go that route. For now what I’m trying to do is get outside in the morning and walk for about an hour. So far (and I’ve only been doing it about a week) it’s definitely helping. I’d been spending far too many hours on the computer, which would make me feel guilty and worse than ever. Walking seems to have helped me out of that pattern of behavior and is giving me more energy to do other things. And it’s making me tired enough to get to bed earlier, so I’m getting more sleep. Also, I’m making sure to get enough vitamin D and fish oil. Low levels of vitamin D and a fatty acid imbalance both can contribute to depression, so I am trying to make sure they aren’t factors for me.

    Although my computer time has gone down considerably in the last few days, I still come back to this blog often. It’s a definite good thing in my life and I am so glad you are back to writing.

  • Katie (from the song):

    ROMAN you are awesome and brave. Mental illness (a disease just like diabetes and many others) is so often hush-hushed. My husband suffers from symptoms of bipolar. (That’s what we like to say instead of putting label on him.) Thanks for putting it all out there!! So many people like you or even me (suffer from anxiety), are ashamed and secretive about their brain hiccups. Dedication to meds and therapy isn’t easy. I’m glad you found your way!

  • Glad you’re back woman! What gets me through? Well, having an awesome husband and kids helps. It’s really helping that it’s finally spring and I can get started on my garden. Planting makes me happy. I recently found a new website that helps me indulge in my unhealthy addiction to glassware! It’s awesome, let me know if you want the name. But mostly, I think I’m happy because I found where I fit in this world and I’m good with that. Keep keepin on sister, and if pharmacology helps, go with it!

  • Kimberly:

    I take low-dose ‘happy pills’ as well (SSRIs) since I went in to my OBGyn for my cyclic mood swings and was diagnosed with PMDD. I was really skeptical about taking mood altering meds, but they work perfectly without making me ‘too’ happy. Now I strongly urge this approach with women who at some points just get far too angry in the last weeks of their cycle that it is scary. I didn’t like how I would yell at my girls sometimes, that’s why I went to the Dr. Don’t be afraid to address it, it is the hormones making you that way (progesterone), not you! :)

    I’m glad you found something that works Rechelle, and are not ashamed of it. You are honestly an inspiration to many, I can tell.

  • Olivia:

    You just made my day! So glad to see you’re back. I think I might need some happy pills to get me thru the next year or two.
    I’m beginning to talk to people about my unbelief and there is noone in my life (besides one sister) who can identify with me.
    You have pulled me thru so much and I still want to meet you :)

    Some things that make me happy:
    -My husband serving me a mixed drink for dinner
    -Watching my daughter dance
    -Getting my quiet time
    and of course reading your blog.

  • Laying on my bed, watching reruns of Grey’s Anatomy on Lifetime, eating chips and bean dip, drinking Pepsi. It’s such a nice way to decompress. If necessary….I lock the door.

  • Lila:

    Is that jacket beaded? Because it is awesome.

    I get by with sites like http://www.cracked.com/

    ps: I knew you’d be back

  • When I first pulled up the site, I thought this was a picture of April.

    Are you blonde now?

    10mgs of Prozac, been on it for years. For such a low dosage, I feel the difference when I run out.

  • Kansas Girl:

    Warm starch with melted dairy.

  • Wow! That dress would absolutely do it for me! I would have worn it to the prom…prom being one of the things that gets me through. No, no, I’m not kidding. I just helped throw an inclusive, non-discriminatory prom for LGBTQ youth and allies in our small town and more than 50 kids came. So the fact that there are so many young people (who are going to be in charge of the world soon) who are willing to be affirming of one another despite the overwhelming conservative religious voices they hear telling them to hate each other–well, it gives one heart.

    And of course, the simple things, like sticky hugs from my babies. And sun–and when there’s no sun, I have a SAD lamp, which I highly recommend to anyone who needs some happy.

  • Carol:

    A steady stack of books from the library, 2 lattes a day, snarky comedy, good internet, a husband who loves and appreciates me, kids who are starting to (I have 3 daughters- it’s a long haul!), and my dog.

    My husband has struggled with depression his whole life and from my perspective and talking with him, it’s keeping on top of it, changing meds as needed when they aren’t doing their job, and regular appointments with a psychologist for talk therapy and evaluation. He also has to constantly tell himself that depression is a legitimate disease and that he can’t just change his thinking and make it go away. People suggest that all the time, and it just doesn’t work longterm.

    Good luck!

  • Nadine:

    Running, and justifying going to bed early because I run.

  • 1. Divorced the biggest mistake of my life after a decade+ of unhappy marriage.

    2. Surround myself with people who make me feel good about me (mostly my very entertaining offspring)

    3. Married the sweetest, kindest man on the planet.

    4. Distance myself from those who drag me down (including certain family members).

    5. Take a drive to Rockport, MA, sit on the rocks, listen to the waves and the gulls, eat some chowder, and/or an ice cream cone.

    6. Apply natural progesterone cream generously all over my body. Perhaps that should be #2. I think it calmed me down to the point where I could enjoy everything else.

    7. A nightly glass of red wine. This is recent. I’ve never been a drinker, but the health benefits got me interested, the warm hum in my head keeps me coming back.

  • Hallie:

    No health insurance here—I’ve learned to live with chronic untreated depression. Living alone helps a lot. SSRIs are great if they help.

  • Christine from Canada:

    Not in any order:

    * Weekly gabfest over coffee with good friends
    * Sudoku
    * Husband who loves to cook and bake
    * Making sure I get my internet fix with favourite sites (like this one)

    I’ve seen a few pictures of you (and sister) wearing dress-up clothes. Fun!

  • Carol:

    Well butrin (well, the generic.) Stopped my psoriasis flares! Chills out my Crohns a bit and makes me have fewer of the bad thoughts. Doesn’t effect the sex drive either.

  • 1. Working out (natural anti-depressant. When I miss even a day, I get the sads a little bit). The feeling of accomplishment since I’ve started running (2 mos ago) is awesome – I’m up to 9 miles at a time, which I ran last night!

    2. My family – even though I live in California with my husband (who also counts as family) & they all live in South Carolina – it’s the regular (almost daily) convos with my sister & mom & dad that do it for me.

    3. On occasion, I drink entirely too much wine :)

  • Jill:

    I believe in “awfully silly things” and refrain from disparaging those that don’t. Live and LET live.

    And I agree, Harry Potter movies are a great escape – for some reason they really relax me.

    Good to see you back AND in your Grey Gardens outfit!

  • Tracy:


    Fabulous picture! And so glad to have you back!!

  • Jimmy:

    Hey Rechelle – delighted to see you back. Really delighted. Have thoroughly enjoyed your blog over the past couple of months – and was sad to see it gone.

    If writing it is a pain sometimes though (I quit mine because it was just a burden) – well – how about just writing it when you can be arsed? (Is that an Englishism? Sure it translates if so…)

    And back to the first point: I think your ‘apology’ post is one of the most powerful I’ve read in this growing internet polemic against the nonsense that is religion. Haven’t checked yet but hoping it’s back too? I pointed lots of friends at it and it’s great to be able to do so.

    Thanks for coming back and carrying on.

  • First of all – LOVE that dress! LOVE. :-D

    And also, blogging and knitting get me out of bed in the morning :-)

  • Crystallized ginger candies, high-quality chocolate truffles, and lots and lots of daily humor. For the latter, I’m using feeds from the following websites (sorry, not all links handy, but Google works):

    Clients from Hell
    Friends of Irony
    Hacked IRL
    MthruF.com (Work Fails & Job LOLs)
    Saturday Morning Breakfast Cereal (smbc-comics.com)
    AwkwardFamilyPhotos.com (some real gems there)

  • kathy jo:

    Wah-hooo!! Glad your back & you brought your funny with you.

    I find great balance in my life by washing my ‘get back into life’ pills down with a Big ole Diet Coke with TONS of ice. mmmm yeah!

  • Chocolate
    whipped cream
    the love of a good dog


  • Yard sale treasure hunting with my best friend on Saturday mornings (we laugh the whole time).

  • Ashley F.:

    Dr. Pepper. Not even in copious quantities–then I think it would lose its magical edge. Once or twice a day I pour myself a little half glass of Dr. Pepper and sip away. I think I may have laughed out loud when my midwife suggested I cut out the Dee-Pee. Listen, lady, I’ve cut out the beer (…mostly…sometimes I steal a sip off a friend if we’re out), I’m trying to eat enough protein, I’m chasing a temperamental 18 month old who won’t take naps to save her life and I have people already asking me if I’m due next week or if I’m having twins (no and no and YES I am SURE that I have 3 months left)…I am NOT giving up the god damn Dr. Pepper!

  • Ashley F.:

    Oh yeah–and I second Lobsta on the cursing.
    I definitely enjoy that quite a bit.

  • Sally:

    I stopped watching Oprah and Dr Phil – my life is SO much better now. lol

    Your hair is lookin’ beautiful!!! :)

  • Carry:

    Really, I’ve got a few things: Knitting, reading, walking my dog, cleaning, and talking to my friends.. No, not a very exciting life, but I’m pretty damn happy.

  • M.R.:

    Walks/Hikes in the outdoors
    hanging out with friends (and maybe a glass of wine)
    paddling my canoe

    All sanity defenders for me.

  • amy:

    Swimming (outside in the sunshine especially)
    Running and listening to This American Life or Fresh Air podcasts
    Diet Dr. Pepper
    Hugs and kisses I regularly steal from my boys

  • K:

    Keeping busy. Exercising every single day whether I want to or not. Catching a few rays of sun. The music on my ipod. Solitude when I need it. Reading everything. The love of my children and husband.

  • Sandy in MI:

    Man, I LOVE that gown. I remember someone saying their mom has one in green, and I still want to see it.

    Thrift stores, garage sales, chocolate, coffee, baking, hugs from my husband and 7 year old son. James Herriot or Jane Austen rereads help a lot. Bon Iver, Lady Gaga.

    Also, not laying on the couch all day like a slug.

    Thanks for putting your library back up!

  • Kim K. in Western PA:

    I take the pills too. They help my anxiety problems. Like my husband says – better living through chemistry!

    My mother-in-law has an entire closet full of vintage clothes (although they weren’t vintage when she bought them) but she has nothing as gorgeous as that dress!

  • Erin:

    You look fabulous! And your hair looks awesome – just thought I’d throw a few compliments out there!

    I may need something to get me through the next few days – we leave Friday to drive(!) to florida with the 2 kids…should be interesting!

  • Leslie:

    I suffered a severe case of depression about fifteen years ago. Although I had met the man who became my husband, my life was going though a lot of changes at the time and I couldn’t cope very well.

    My happy pill was Prozac. I was on it for about five years and it along with weekly talks to a shrink really saved my life.

    What gets me through difficult times now? My wonderful in-house shrink (hubby) who has listened and been my angel over all these years. He didn’t dump me during my lowest moment.

    I also take pleasure in the wonderful things that life has brought to me (the birth of my son five years ago and another due this summer). I hate to think of what I would have missed out on if I had taken a darker path.

  • Melissa:

    I used to take happy pills, but they never really worked. Deep down I knew that it was my thought process that is the problem and the pills can’t fix it. To cope I try to be the best person I can. I try to be successful where I fear failure and outgoing when I fear rejection. When I fail or feel rejected I try to learn from it instead of internalizing it. If I only think about one day at a time I don’t feel so overwhelmed.
    I also started exercising recently, which has had a huge impact on my outlook. Drinking in moderation, watching tv in moderation, and reading entirely too much are also ways that I cope. Of course, I enjoy my children (sometimes this needs to be in moderation) and spending time with friends and family are also on the list.
    I’m glad I decided to answer your question; I needed to stop and smell the roses today. Thanks!

  • Action Squirrel:

    I have some very obnoxious things to say. Please don’t hate me, depressed chocolate eaters.

    First, it’s curious how many people self-medicate with sugar and junk food. I changed my life when I stopped eating non-foods, soda, sugar, fake sugar, and processed crap. It’s just a rotten cycle when you eat chemicals shaped or packaged as “food.” Yes I know swiss chocolate is actually a religion and does not fall under this description.

    Second, I used to know a guy who wrote copy for the marketing of a certain very large drug firm a number of years ago. The drug firm was looking for more ways to make money so they decided pretty much based on nothing at all to start marketing a certain popular SSRI uptake inhibitor to women who have PMS, or anything at all that can be at all related to the fact that they are women. This was one angle, but they tried a couple different ones before the PMS thing took off in the market. He and his colleagues were disgusted, and felt it was highly unethical… but it was the kind of thing the drug company had them do all the time.

  • I change my hair as frequently as I possibly can. I suppose it’s another form of therapy.

  • Spinny:

    Not feeling guilty anymore about not being a good enough Christian has improved my attitude. Completely letting go of that portion of my thought process was a huge help to my emotional state.

    Also, Spring always helps my mood. :)

  • GA in GA:

    OMG! I think my mother had the same gown . . . probably still has it, she never gets rid of her clothes! lol

    Let’s see . . .

    My kitties snuggling with me
    Dark chocolate
    Spending time with my daughter, if the phase of the moon is right
    A nice glass of wine
    Spending time with DH when he is in a good mood, otherwise avoiding spending time with him. ;-)
    Once a month having a pedicure and having my hair color ‘adjusted’

  • stephanie:

    I also do the happy pills.

    That dress is fab! So glad you’re back.

  • Lori:

    Yup, after my second miscarriage it was definitely Jesus that got me thru. And yes, I’m serious. My day always goes better with a bit of quiet time reading my B-I-B-L-E (remember the song? Is it running thru your head now?? hee hee) in the morning. And a mid-day break with a good fiction book coupled with a salty (or sweet) snack is always a special treat. Yes, I know I shouldn’t “medicate” with food but dang, it really hits the spot sometimes. Sometimes I like to end my day with that too. Hmmm… Methinks that could account for that weight I can’t seem to get rid of… And my kids and husband. My husband can calm me down and talk sense into me when no one else can and my kids just crack me up and help me not take life quite so seriously. Oh and hiding toxic people on facebook. Or just avoiding Facebook which can be a total stress at times…

  • Happy pills, thank God for happy pills.
    There, I said it!
    And you look ab fab in the outfit!

  • What gets me through?
    Well this has been a long 2 weeks emotionally.
    My child with medical issues, who should not have lived this long has just turned 21.
    My husband is turned 49 today.
    I turned 46 on the 10th.
    I am really working on counting my blessings as all the little things that happen to me.
    Sappy, sure, but when I look at the big picture, this life of mine could have been so much different.
    2nd chances are wonderful.

  • Kay in KCMO:

    I walk. I am a champion walker. Fast. No dawdling.

    Chocolate. The 90 per cent stuff, baby. All you seventy percenters can kiss my ass.

    Red wine every night no matter what.

    Drawing floor plans of houses and apartment buildings that will never be built because 1) I’m not an architect, 2) I have no money and 3) I lack even the slightest bit of courage to show my plans to anyone who could evaluate them.

    No caffeine in any form whatsoever. Makes my brain chemistry wacky.

    Music. Especially music I can play air guitar to: 60 Foot Dolls, Bob Mould/Husker Du, Foo Fighters, Wildhearts, etc… Loud, hard, lots of guitars

    Comedy. Laughter, the real gut-busting thing, is great medicine.

    Genuine, deep, “honey, you’re crushing my spine” hugs from Mr. Kay in KCMO.

    Orgasms. However you can get ‘em. ‘Nuff said.

  • Annie:

    I feel very isolated in my neighborhood. I have been having doubts about my Mormon beliefs for some time now. I’m afraid to share my thoughts and feelings with family or friends as I know this will only isolate me more.

    This sounds silly but in a small way, reading your blog has helped me to get through. I wish I was as courageous as you. So, thank you for coming back.

  • teresa:

    Well, I guess whatever gets you through the bad times, gets you through. I have battled depression my entire life, but these last few months have been horrendous. What gets me through? I guess I need to be slapped, but my faith. At the darkest hour, when I thought I couldn’t make it another breath, I called on a higher power than myself. I call him Jesus, you can call him whatever you want. I wouldn’t be here without Him. I guess you could call me simple minded, but I recalled my Grandmother speaking His name several times while my Grandad was dying. My Grandad lived to see a few more years with his family. It’s just something I remembered and I have relied upon. I’m so glad for her example. At the end of the day, you have to be honest with yourself. If you choose not to believe, that’s your absolute right. But if you do believe, you have that right also. Rechelle, you make me smile, I love your orange coat dress, my Mom had a purple one similar to it. I am wishing you a wonderful tomorrow filled with sunshine and happiness.

  • suzetta:

    Prozac, sunshine, exercise, pondering the miracle of creation, and knowing my identity in Christ. Sorry, but you did ask!

  • Clay:

    Trying something different helps. I just read “My Stroke of Insight” and now have a whole new outlook on how the brain works and how to get happy, tra-la. By a neurobiologist, but it is about her stroke. Try it.

    Glad to see you back. I thought you would.

  • Ted Powell:

    Annie wrote: I feel very isolated in my neighborhood. I have been having doubts about my Mormon beliefs for some time now.

    You might enjoy USU SHAFT (Utah State
    University Secular Humanists, Atheists, and Free Thinkers). Their white text on black colour scheme
    isn’t the greatest, but I usually read their articles in my feed reader.

  • Beer works nicely for me, when I can afford it. Other than that, just looking forward to two years from now when I’ll be hitting the road on a (approximately) year-long road trip :)

  • tessa:

    yoga, youtube, and yoohoo


  • lola falana:

    Doc Johnson Silagel
    Cooking good food
    I seem to have moved on from a few months of excessive drinking
    (Recently divorced)

    Mostly I’m in pretty good shape;

  • Priss:

    Annie, if you listen to podcasts, the Mormon Expression one might be something you’d like. There is a variety of panelists from ex-Mormon to what passes for liberal practicing Mormon to iron rod Mormon (that hard line guy drives me crazy though!). The podcast seems to be very fair, even though more of the hosts are ex-Mormons than anything else. They don’t bash the church, just cover a lot of topics without only giving the official church version.

  • Jenn:

    I fight Serotonin issues as well, which is made worse when I don’t get enough sunlight. The whole SAD thing. So, for me I go to a full spectrum tanning salon. I know the whole cancer scare thing, but a few minutes with full spectrum light seems to help when the gray seems to be never ending.
    That and sugar and wheat seem to make the situation worse. I’ve done a bit of research and found that the sugar can burn up your serotonin and sets me up for failure (as sugar tends to make me crave yet more sugar, which makes me fat and depressed:). I found a book called “The Mood Cure” by Julia Ross and she uses food specifically, as well as amino acid supplements, to help moods rebound and bring you back up.
    It’s something to think about anyway. Good luck! Know that you aren’t alone in this fight.

  • lola falana:

    There’s more! My possessed laptop submitted on its own.

    Appreciating friends and family
    Learning my lessons
    New hope

    We both tried very hard.

  • So glad to see you back!
    I take two happy pills a day.
    They are my best friends.
    Without them, everything in the world is wrong…


  • Brian:

    Paxil is a must for me to keep my anxiety disorder under control. I tried to go off pf it once with disasterous results (it took several months to be able to function normally again). I am just happy that these types of medicines exist.

  • DirtyKSmama - Nikki:

    I just made my plan for getting through next winter if it gets too “blah” – I want to road trip with Rechelle to go visit Kay in KCMO! I love your list, Kay. And we can laugh through Costco buying red wine and insanely dark chocolate and then rock out and hug and look at plans, then return to our homes for the “O.”

  • Nikki and Kay if you ever do come to KC w/Rechelle, y’all need to look me up! Can we drink the wine in Costo while we’re walking about?

  • bPer:

    What gets me through? Well, I’ve got my own happy pills, though of a different sort. There’s the beta blocker for my cardiac arrhythmia, which has given me hope that I’ll beat my genetic inheritance and actually make it past my 50′s, and there’s the proton pump inhibitor that makes daily life comfortable.

    Beyond that, there’s my beloved wife – hardly a day goes by when I don’t marvel at having found someone like her. There are my amazing nieces and nephews, who are a joy and thrill to spend time with. There are the Internet atheist and skeptic communities, that have banished the awful sense of isolation and loneliness that preceded them. And there’s the marvelous sense of oneness I get whenever I step out on a cloudless night and gaze up at the phenomenally beautiful universe.

    Rechelle, I’m so glad you started blogging again. Thanks. You help us all here make it through. I hope we can reciprocate.


  • Gwenny:

    World of Warcraft. Specifically player vs player. When I’m depressed I can spend all my free time in battlegrounds and fighting for Wintergrasp. I must be pretty depressed, since I recently completed the achievement for 100,000 kills of enemy faction players.

  • Spring is here! Warmer weather is coming…those two cheer me greatly. Good times and laughs with my family are a plus. But so is putting the 2 carpet crawlers to bed and enjoying a good movie and some vino. By myself.

  • jen:

    When it gets particularly bad, SSRIs help me get through. Most of the time, I just do a lot of playing games, reading, etc.

  • Kay in KCMO:

    Annie you might want to go here: http://www.exmormon.org/

    These are all people who are in or were once in the same boat as you. A word to the wise: the bulletin board can be a raucous place; there’s a lot of anger, sadness and frustration, but there is also joy, kindness, loud laughter, light-mindedness and wonderful advice. Read for a while before you comment. Living in your Mormon cocoon you may very well be shocked at the bluntness of the posters there. Everyone will treat you like the adult you are. There is virtually no censorship. Even though I’m a nevermo (was never a Mormon) I spend hours there every day. Have for years. By and large these are some of the best people I’ve never met. YOU ARE NOT ALONE! Unless you want to be and that’s okay, too.

    Note: Steve Benson, the grandson of the late Ezra Taft Benson posts regularly. Tal Bachman did when he was questioning and exiting.

    Now that I think of it, if you choose to go to the site, you might want to start with the stories. People send in their accounts of what their lives were like. Who knows, you might have a twin!

    Just, please read the site if you’re questioning. It might help and if it doesn’t then what have you lost other than time? Take care.

    Now, Nikki, Kelley, why wait til winter? We’ll walk to Costco from my apt. and decimate the samples. They won’t know what hit ‘em. And then do all the things that Nikki said and Kelley, we *will* drink wine in Costco, but I can’t get banned – it’s my second home – so we’ll have to be sneaky. I like being sneaky. What wine goes with samples?

  • music! :)

  • JJ:

    Nice to see you back and you look FANTASTIC in orange!

  • Dawn:

    I guess you’re going to slap me, but Jesus get me through. I’ve been through some really tough things and life changing events and my faith has been the most valued asset I have.

    The other thing I found that helps is going outside and working in my yard. No matter how bad I feel, getting out in the sunshine helps, even in the dead of winter. I take long walks in the early morning too. It’s amazing how much better I feel after walking and looking at the beauty God has given us. It can be something as simple as a spider web in a tree or fence with dew (looks very lacy and lovely). I try to always keep a positive outlook on everything; that’s helpful to me too.

  • Kathy:

    Def happy pills, I have taken them on and off for years.
    Reading books, magazines, and blogs like yours that make me laugh, think, smile and allow me to realize that I’m not alone! Alcohol is the one thing I should partake in more often – after all Dr. Oz said that for optimal health you should have two alcoholic beverages a day. Listening to my favorite songs, music has the power to transport you to a different time & place in an instant. And lastly, running or exercise.. which I loathe but know I should do more often b/c I always feel better afterwards. I need more self discipline..*sigh*
    Anyway, good for you for knowing when to get help!! So happy you’re back!

  • I fought the need for medicinal help for a long time…after thinking I was having a heart attack and realizing I was having panic attacks, I decided not to let my fear nor the stereotypes of others sway my decision anymore…I felt like I was being held prisoner by my anxiety…after 1 1/2 yrs. I still am learning to deal with the anxiety through behavioral therapy but the low dosage meds I take help to even everything out. I still struggle sometimes in high stress situations, but deep breathing, finding a quiet place outside to enjoy the sunshine and the beauty around me helps put things into perspective…my bedroom is my sanctuary as well…it’s where I usually blog and read.
    I’m glad you’re back, Rechelle.

  • Michele:

    Giving up god and the attendant guilt that goes with religion made a major difference for me. Now the few times things get me down I find cuddling with my wonderful husband or a creative martini takes care of it quite nicely.

  • laughing at ourselves is great therapy, live this. meant “love this” but live it too.

  • Well I recently had a complete hormone panel done and found that I’m significantly below in everything so I’m fixing to start taking custom-made bioidentical hormones. I’ll bet that’ll make things better. :)

    I’m so glad to see you’re back!

  • efrique:

    I do different things to deal with life.

    Try not to take it too seriously.


    Occasionally stepping back a bit and letting things go.

    Occasionally I don’t cope so well; sometimes accepting that I am not always going to be at my best helps me cope with it when it happens.

  • Ted Powell:

    Hopping on my bike and heading off to Bellingham (a little over fifty miles south of Vancouver BC, where I live) for no good reason except that it was a lovely sunny day. Admittedly, today was damp, but that was Friday, and it was fabulous.

  • Well I recently had a complete hormone panel done and found that I’m significantly below in everything so I’m fixing to start taking custom-made bioidentical hormones. I’ll bet that’ll make things better. :)

    I’m so glad to see you’re back!

  • I do different things to deal with life.

    Try not to take it too seriously.


    Occasionally stepping back a bit and letting things go.

    Occasionally I don’t cope so well; sometimes accepting that I am not always going to be at my best helps me cope with it when it happens.

  • Maria:

    Glad happy pills are working for you!! Good for you, it takes a lot for some people to try them, but I’m all for ‘em!

    I did various SSRI’s for about 5 years or so. Saved my mommydom. Saved my sanity. Now what keeps me going is a super healthy diet, (except on days,dang it, I MUST EAT crap) and various supplements (alternative medicine freak!! Don’t tell CD!) that help me deal with panic/anxiety disorder. Lots’ of relaxation techniques. Supportive and WAY patient daughter and husband…and belief system.

    Much happiness to you, Rechelle!

  • Not in any particular order-

    Reading a trashy book
    Drinking a martini-
    Wasting time on the computer reading my favorite blogs
    Watching my favorite movies
    Shoe shopping

  • Deb F:

    Happy pills are the bomb! My Dr. says they should be put in the water system.
    Happy to have you back – you delight me, make me laugh, and make me think.

  • Lois:

    I had a brain hemorrhage 16 months ago. Wish there were a happy pill for the memory deficits, headaches and seizures that have followed. I’ll have to say that caring for my nine-month-old granddaughter helps me keep on keeping on! Her sweet smiles and delight in her dawning abilities make every day worth getting through.

  • Chris R.:

    Great blogs like yours.

    Good to have you back. :)

  • Jaime:

    Some of us need those happy pills :) Glad to see you are back on the blog rolls my friend.

  • Happy pills…